Looking down the barrel of a new week

Well I made it through the first week. I never thought that it was going to be easy, but honestly I don't think that I was really prepared for uncontrollable (it seems) classes. No part of my training prepared me for some of the experiences I have encountered. So... my training continues. I worry that I might loose a degree of hope that I am actually having an influence on the students that I'm working with. I find it really hard to accept that my role may be just to sit behind the teachers desk and switch off to the zoo around me, yet that is a message that is being given to me. Wierd/Disturbing.